Cold hate, but fury hotter than the 18th sub level of whorror

I am fucking incensed. People jump to conclusions way too much. You could say that I myself do, but hey I don't do anything else to hurt anyone, I just rant here. My sanity is collapsing in the face of all there problems but I refuse to break.

This may be totally false because I am assuming things, but then it could very well be true and I am disgusted at the implications of it being true.

People consciously avoided me for a while, so be it. They stopped when they needed my help for something, so technically they were indebted to me even though I would never think of it like that, I don't render aid for the sake of receiving some back. Now that the false debt has been repaid I am being avoided again? So the period of not avoiding me was an attempt to shake of the imagined debt to me. Such hypocrisy was never expected from these persons, but if I'm right, you are repined bastards for this vulgar display of hypocrisy. I don't use the word "hate" lightly, but if my assumption is true, I hate you to a level of unimaginable degrees.

If I'm wrong, it's just a mind weary of blows from fate prepping up defenses against assaults that never came. I never want to be a product of my environment but it's permeating my mind and soul, seeping in ever so surely...