Dear Mother Dear Father

Dear mother
Dear father
What is this hell you have put me through
Believer
Deceiver
Day in day out live my life through you
Pushed onto me what's wrong or right
Hidden from this thing that they call life

Dear mother
Dear father
Every thought i'd think you'd disapprove
Curator
Dictator
Always cencoring my every move
Children are seen bur are not heard
Tear out everything inspired

Innocence
Torn from me without your shelter
Barred reality
I'm living blindly

Dear mother
Dear father
Time has frozen still what's left to be
Hear nothing
Say nothing
Cannot face the fact i think for me
No guarantee,it's life as is
But damn you for not giving me my chance

Dear mother
Dear father
You've clipped my wings before i learned to fly
Unspoiled
Unspoken
I've outgrown that fucking lullaby
Same thing i've always heard from you
Do as i say not as i do

Innocence
Torn from me without your shelter
Barred reality
I'm living blindly
I'm in hell without you
Cannot cope without you two
Shocked at the world that i see
Innocent victim please rescue me

Dear mother
Dear father
Hidden in your world you've made for me
I'm seething
I'm bleeding
Ripping wounds in me that never heal
Undying spite i feel for you
Living out this hell you always knew

Lyrics for Dyers Eve - Metallica

I found these lyrics rather striking. My parents are only guilty of a few here, but the lyrics could refer to parents in general who are dickheads and treat their kids real miserable. I emphathise with such people even if they don't share it openly. I am rather perceptive, knowing if people are talking about me behind my back, if people are unhappy about something, if people are avoiding me, etc etc. This is no exception, I can usually tell if people's parents are assholes. It sucks...

There is a shitload to do for PW, hopefully can clear some of it at tomorrow's meeting.
CCA, same story. If SLs do show up then maybe things can progress faster. I really feel sorry for Nikki ;/. Not as if he hasn't got enough on his plate. Everyone should really work harder -.- I mean cmon, you can play guitar while you stare at people's facebook pictures...

Typical teenage problem: love/crush. Again. Fuck my life. As if I don't have enough to do already. No I don't intend to do anything but it's fucking annoying to have that feeling nonetheless. I'm like a goddamn 13 year old, shit.