This is not a daily catalogue bullshit thing, just emotions which need venting, and yet can't be translated into grim and frostbitten riffs.About the background, I think it represents those feelings which need vent quite accurately.
I'll start off. 2 friends who were supposed to attend a gig with me tomorrow backed out. For the 2nd/3rd time in a row respectively. They have their reasons and I don't blame them but it's a shitty feeling nonetheless, I was really looking forward to it. I didn't ditch my sec 4 classmates to go to a gig alone(and ended up not going anyway, missed seeing Heidon). This just contributes to the overall loneliness bout I've been going through recently.
Second, CCA. The only thing I look forward to in school(besides friends or whatever) just got terrible. Ok it didn't get terrible, I got terrible. For someone who feels pretty good when he tabs out a song in his head via hearing, I spent 3 hours of practice to learn TWO PAGES. Hoo-fuckin-ray, Mr I-don't need-tabs can't play the most simple bassline in the world without being taught how to. Best part? Can't practice at home using normal classical git, because I can barely read sheet music and usually learn by tabbing it out in my head. So what, buy an acoustic bass? Nope. Just be pissed at my musical illiteracy.
Last of all, parent-teacher meeting tomorrow, awesome. "Bryan's got to work harder". Whatever, I already am, and it would help if people weren't breathing down my fucking neck all the time to make sure of it.
All this on top of all the shit that's been piled on me since I was 8. Fuck the world and most but not all of the people in it.
